Ok, I don’t really want it to keep snowing. LOL! But if it is, then so be it.
I’ve already told my professor that I won’t be able to do today’s assignment due to the snow, (I have to be able to get out into the city to do it). Today, I’m going to try to relax a little, though I really should be working! I took the last two days off working due to circumstances, (Friday I was ill, and Saturday I was crying most of the day).
Yeah, I’m $60 behind…
Today I went out and shot a few pictures of one of my girls. I think they went wonderfully. I’m going to try shooting my other daughter within the next few days.
Speaking of such things, when I was out doing my homework on Saturday, I was asked about shooting a boudoir photoshoot. It should be interesting it’s going to be my very first one. Other then photojournalistic style shooting, I’ve not shot adults. I’ve never “posed” anyone.
I also need to really sit down with a pen and paper and get my priorities straight. I’ve had other people to depend on for so long. I need to really get straight what it is that I want to do; where I want to be; who I want to be; what I would like in my life. And to be ok with what ever I choose.
I know some of that may sound odd, but it’s true…
I’m so flustered. I had this site crash, now I’m going to need to re-do it. Plus, I have a ton of school work and I’ve fallen behind with getting my bills paid off, I’m back to where I was when I started. I think I need a miracle to do it now. I’m trying to remember that if I can keep myself together enough, I’ll be able to do it. It’s not really as big as I’m making it out to be. I need to make about $550 in about 13 days. I know I’ve made it before, but I had a room to be able to do it in, and didn’t have schoolwork that needed to be done.
*calm….. calm*
Ok, trying to calm my nerves. I have one way that I can make $200 of it. It may take most of a day, though. I can shoot the set for IShotMyself (ISM). That would be good, and would bring it down to $350. Plus, if my account doesn’t fo into deficit, I think I’ll have another $40 going into it($310). I think I should be able to make at least $50 at myfreecams (MFC) over the next week and a half ($290). (I don’t make too much money there, it’s one of the places where the guys will hang out, but I’ll rarely get any money for it.) So, if I can do all that, $290 isn’t too much. LOL! I know I won’t be able to work tomorrow night (night before my younger daughter’s birthday), or on her birthday… so that leaves me with 11 days counting today minus the one for doing the ISM; averages needing to make about $29 a day.not including MFC.
Thank you for listening to my venting… I’m just trying to get it straight in my head that everything will be ok.
I have a timeline in front of me and I’m panicking about it a bit. You see, (if you don’t already know), I’m trying to get into a house. The $8000 (or 10%) tax rebate’s been extended till May, so I’m trying to make it so I have the money together to be able to do it! I’m hoping to be able to use the tax rebate as the down payment! … Which means, I only have about 3 months to get all my ducks in a row and get papers signed for it. (The preliminary paperwork has to be signed by May 1st, and it has to close by July 1st) So, I’m trying to move on it all before it goes away, and feel like I’m the only one who IS doing anything towards it!
…sigh…